Today I wanted to talk about self-love and my own journey with it, actually, I've had the title for this post since last summer when I started posting wearing a bikini -shocking for me tbh., but then decided to make a full good post about it soon as I wanna get into what's happening right now.
I obviously have a long way to go in this self-love thing but I can definitely say that I'm a lot closer than I was two years ago, but not closer than I was a year ago, let me explain: this lockdown is making me feel awful most of the time, again. I'm sure I'm not the only one but it definitely sucks.
I feel like every step forward I make then comes two steps back. Instagram is helping me getting through this awful state as I use it as a way to make an effort on my looks for content.
Most of the time I feel like I'm failing because I compare myself to what others are doing: exercise, baking, amazing content... you know, being productive and all that. Truth is that I've never been someone who loves exercise and feeling the pressure to do it doesn't help at all, when it comes to baking I could bake more but then I start thinking about all the calories and how lazy I am to then burn them so I prefer not to bake anything.
Then there are days where I feel great and I do exercises that I do enjoy, cook a healthy dinner, create content I'm proud of and even do some uni assignments, my superhero days. Why should I compare myself with others when I don't even know what they're going through as well? In conclusion, just try to live your days however you can as no one was prepared for what we are living at the moment and It sucks.
So, I'm trying not to judge myself too much because of the weight I've gained and the things I do in a day, but on a more positive note, I started a new way to organize my days and not have that much time to overthink and eateverything:
Every night, before going to bed, I create a TO-DO list for the next day with small tasks and then some big ones like: do uni work, work out, tidy my room, etc... and then when I wake up I see what I have to do and organize the hours of the day, and it really helps, at least for now lol
How do you cope with laziness and anxiety these days?
PS: please take care of yourself, we are together on this xo
Africa,
x
